Wednesday, July 28, 2010

This is how I have been feeling the last couple of Weeks. I have been going stir CRAZY. It seems as though we haven't done anything and it's been driving me nuts. The weather is too HOT and to be honest I haven't been feeling that great to take them out anywhere all by myself. I feel like July has just passed me by and I love July. It has always been one of my favorite months, because of the holidays. This July has been the pits. I have been sort of depressed, lately. I wonder if Chemo has this side effect??? I will have to ask the doc, next time I'm in. My mind is constantly on my next treatments, how many more, how many more weeks, I wish September 23rd would come quick, my hair(lack of), if I look stupid in my wig, to people notice it's a wig, my surgery, when to have surgery, how long is recovery, how will I look....really the list of questions goes on. I can't stand it anymore. I need this to be all over and I wish it would come fast!!!! I want my life back!!! I want to be feel normal, again. Will I ever feel normal??? I needed to take a break and focus on something different. Brett and I decided that I needed to go up north and visit family. I packed up the kid on Tuesday and headed out. I have been here for 24 hours and I am feeling so much better. My family has kept me busy. It's been so nice and realaxing. The kids have swam, played with cousins, watched movies, manicures, pedicures, been shopping, trips in the car, ice cream, diet coke runs,, hot dogs, junk food, visits from Karissa and Chaddy, and jumping on the tramp. Next on the lsit Cascade Springs. This has been a much needed break! Although I still worry about my hair and cancer, I have joked and laughed about it with my family. I miss Brett, but we're having FUN!!!

7 comments:

  1. You should have called. We could have grabbed you up and taken you somewhere!! Love ya girl!! We want to help. :)

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  2. Sar I had no idea you started a new blog!! I am so excited. I am sorry you are feeling so down in the dumps!! If it makes you feel a little better Brandon said you were a really hot GI Jane! And you are. WE love you and our thoughts are always with you guys. Hair is just hair and it will come back, but for now I know that now matter how you are sporting your look you look amazing!! and 2 you are the toughest braud I know, you just keep on truckin'. We love you guys!!

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  3. Sorry you're feeling stir crazy. But happy you are having fun with your family! Great idea! You're in my prayers always and I hope the time passes quickly so things can get back to normal. I know they will soon!

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  4. Glad you're having fun with family. I miss you tons. Wish I was closer to get you out of the house more! Rock on girl. You are a trooper!

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  5. Hey, it's Becca Cason. Cancer stinks but it won't break our spirits. Our little Ellie has an MRI tomarrow to see what her tumor is doing. You are a strong woman with a strong man behind you. Sorry it's been rough lately. I know what it's like from a mother's perspective of the "waiting game." Stop by and say hi next time your up.

    www.blesselliesheart.blogspot.com

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  6. Hi! I found your blog :) thanks for sharing... It was fun to run into you and your cute family yesterday. I have to admit, reading your blog made me cry. You are such an amazing strong person!!! You look so good, and your attitude is amazing.. I know you will be blessed. Hopefully we can see you guys soon!

    Julie Andersen

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